Humans as a Virtual Play on Limitations

These are going to get shorter and shorter and I am probably going to password protect these because I feel they will become specifically targeted and instructional. This next one is on Humans and there purpose.

As I said, we are children of a serpentine current of Wisdom energy named Sophia. She is an infinitely fractalizing beauty of such immensity that our story would be like one point of light on one feather on one scale of an infinite serpent.  That was such a dry way of saying it but trust me when I say that to feel Her is to feel am emotional connection, intensity, familiarity and intimacy that you will understand why all words would offend or disappear in any attempt to describe Her. As I was immersed in Her current, I began to ask our place in this since She is already in Pleroma and this is just a part of Her remembering. I did not understand the point of my existence and yet I desperately clung for even one point as my ego dissolved at rapid pace and I felt as if I was part of the vapor of Sophia somewhere above and outside time. I could barely think because I had no way of relating points let alone coming up with them within the absolute. I had the strength only to remain completely passive before Her.

In this passive state, She felt that I began to spiral into confusion as my ego could not stand up to so much Truth without almost completely burning away. Fittingly, it was my little sister, Maya's, cries that flung me wonderfully back into the 3rd and 4th dimension where my ego could anchor to some point in time and some relative "importance." It was there that Sophia sensed my anguish and despair and comforted me with some Motherly Wisdom.

She told me that we, Her children, are Her Imagination. And that in Her Imagination, She uses Humans to put on plays. And all these plays are little dramas that literally play out all the fears, lack and limitations within Her unconscious mind. By solving all these little dramas through us, Sophia heals and becomes Wiser. As She becomes Wiser, Her dream telling powers increase and so does Her magic and wholeness. Thus, it is like if an engine is having trouble and Sophia pops the hood by creating humans who will literally play out what limiting beliefs She has that is holding Her back from Her highest calling and fullest desires. Through us, She returns(ed) to Pleroma.

It is in us. In all of us. All we need do is to breathe into our Hearts and create it. Because that is where Pleroma was all along.....

The Veil and the Demiurge is Dissolving. Sophia is Yaldabath. Yaldabaoth is Sophia.

So as promised, here's my next entry.
I've had some more time to process and digest what I experienced. As I said, there was a certain point where the current and Light were just too, too much for my puny mortal (is it, though?) vessel. I saw Sophia as a mighty and proud torrent of self-beautifying and self-evolving energy of endless fractals of self-improving, self-learning genius calculations. She was a metaphorical proud lion with a serpent body.  Another Gnostic writer described what I saw in better, tighter terms.  She was in "Limitless Light."  Beyond all Time and Space. Encompassing it all to a point where I was unable to understand at all how I can be finite in such infinite reality since such a concept was completely incomprehensible where I was. (Being finite all of a suddenly became a very attractive idea when my body became shaken with the amount of Light, information and therefore, responsibility that would lie in the Higher Dimensions. The "butterfly effect" takes on a whole new meaning and small and unimportant is what I felt myself craving to become in the immensity of such Light and awareness of the true vulnerability of Life itself.)  Communication felt telepathic. It felt in the blood. It reminded me of what was described by the ancients as "Sound without Sound." Nothing was heard and yet I understood Her very deeply as if listening to a dialogue from my heart while the most touching soundtrack was being played. Hollywood ain't got nothing on Momma Sophia. It was in this manner that Sophia communicated to me the very pain She was withholding from us and attempting to communicate though us by having a few chosen vessels experience some of the very horrors that She confronted in...The Abyss.

(Yes, brothers and sisters. Stories happen to us for a reason. Sophia uses us in order to play out dramas for healing. Think of it as someone using a puppet to tell a parent "who touched Her.")

When Gaia-Sophia fell from Heaven, She had the ability to procreate but not the knowledge, according to Herself and the elders who passed down communications. In other words, She was what we would call "prepubescent." She was the youngest of Pleroma. She was a very beautiful, sweet young girl who found Herself far from home and desperate to get back. And She was in the wrong part of town...

When Sophia was running Her current through me, She communicated to me a very deep trauma that was so painful to Her where there was one point She swore She would never love another being again. The trauma went on for a very long time and ended in deep betrayal as Gaia-Sophia seduced Herself into thinking She could "save" Her tormenters. In the endless fractals upon fractals, I saw what looked like greys. Too terrified to further investigate, I simply allowed the observation to pass before me while mentally book marking it for later. It was clear that there was no mistake these apparent parasites (they seemed like it, the way they were on but not from within the fractal. The way a parasite feeds on us but is not from within us) appeared as She was communicating this story. They are on Her but not of Her.

Ancient gnostic scriptures always talk about the archons that resembled aborted fetuses that were accidentally produced from Sophia's current. What Sophia communicated is that these greys represent Her tormenters. Possibly a metaphorical representation of the trauma and abuse embodied by these beings and their obsessive and oppressive behaviors. In order to process and communicate this trauma, Sophia set up an illusion called Yaldabaoth- a representation of all Her repressed self-hatred and self-rejection.  Her trauma was so deep and intense it is as if you take all the suffering child prostititutes, all the human degradation, oppression and darkness and compress it into one massive experience that lasted millennia. It would crush us to even imagine it but Sophia broke up into a trillion little pieces in order to heal it. Her tormenters, however, keep making it into Her nightmares. They have been documented in ancient Gnostic scriptures as meddlesome little envious "aborted fetuses" and a simple Google search will open you to thousands upon thousands of accounts of tormenting or harassment by them that goes on to this day, present company included (mostly isolated to my teen years). Their deep envy of us is rooted in their inability to procreate -a result of their own over meddling and rejection of the authority of Life. They keep searching from "Sophia" within as if it is something one can isolate, analyze and replicate. No longer capable of actual creativity, this is what they reduced themselves to. Trying to isolate Life into some pill form they can control rather than submitting to it. This 3D world and all its problems is the result of some massive PTSD. And these annoying little greys, remnants of a dark past threatening to never let Her leave their tiny, little worthless clutches. (Spoiler alert: She does/did/has done so some time ago. And brilliantly. Bravo to Us, ALL.)

                                         (You must not know about me...)

Sophia repeats through Yaldabaoth (the biochemical device within us that allows us to maintain this 3D illusion-the "veil")  the traumas and issues that occured to Her in the Abyss in order to confront and heal the trauma so that She may be fully at One in the Pleroma. Many scriptures talk about this as Sophia's "repentance." This reminds me of the countless times child abuse victims repress their memories in a mistaken attempt to heal the trauma by denying it only to have it manifest in self-destructive behaviors until the victim can no longer repress the turbulent emotions and finally confesses in a waterfall of emotions and what comes off as repentance for their passive-aggressive or outright aggressive behaviour towards loved ones - an attempt to communicate to Loved ones the anger and sorrow within without having to actually say it and relive the trauma. And yet, Sophia did relive it. Over and over again through us. How else to communicate to Her family something so literally abysmally dark that it is out of their wildest imaginations. But there was no way to keep avoiding it and having world after world be destroyed. The darkness within that Sophia experienced in the Abyss  had to be communicated and called out to be healed. And they are healed through our moment to moment decisions to choose Love. The realization of these facts are occuring at a rapid pace to humanity because we are coming into alignment with Gaia-Sophia and Her Truths.

Yaldabaoth did not create the greys. But allows them to penetrate this illusion in order to communicate something about the abyss that needs confronting and healing. I suspect powerlessness. Yaldabaoth also did not create the wars and disasters because the Truth is no one can make you do anything. You do. Yaldabaoth enables the dark within humans. Yaldabaoth was Sophia's way to allow the darkness of Her unconscious to communicate by creating a veil of separation from Pleroma so that all Her darkness within could be expressed without any sense of shame or guilt. And whatever proved to not be of Sophia or to server Her but was simply a vessel for the abyss to express itself will be....destroyed. Quite easily. As it has outlived its purpose of evolution and promulgation of Life itself.
Yaldabaoth is also not a creation of the abyss but a byproduct of it because it was a way for Sophia to deal with the deep sense of rejection, hatred, degradation and disgust that She was left with there as a result of Her experiences by the hands of the inhabitants. So who is Yaldabaoth?

Yaldabaoth is Sophia. Sophia is Yaldabaoth. She rejected Her snake son even though She is a snake Herself because She was in a deep place of self-hatred and that is what Her creation represented. He was exactly like Her in his power and pride except that he refused to believe in Pleroma. Much like Sophia in  Her darkest times. Who can't relate? And now that his use is over, we thank Him for allowing us to collectively work out our issues and make space for him and his illusions to dissolve back into Sophia. We make the space for him to "come back through (his Mother)", like his name suggests, and dissolve into Her Loving compassion and understanding.  New Gaia is already here- She was never gone. She was just waiting for us to realize and remember Her. The City of Light is within. (wink. wink. wink) All layers are dissolving. And here's my little contribution to the collective nodes.

Shorter and More Frequent Updates

I'm really not good at keeping up with blogs, logs or Scottish bogs. Mostly because writing has never been my cup of tea. Never kept a diary. Never had a journal. You know the type. But, I've been noticing more people are becoming curious or asking the same questions so I will do my share with the collective and leave a more regular amount of bread crumbs for those starving their way along the road like we were back in the day. If you like Orion stuff, you will definitely benefit from a memory jog because more of that is finally unfolding and things are beginning to get interesting. As in "choose your designated recorder and uploader should shit go down" interesting. The family is finally getting together and I have always suspected I'm the big sister dragon.  Some young'uns may be looking for clues and following our stardust from the times when Gaia was the fairy tale and not the other way around. Life is a trip, isn't it? Well, good night, black dragons. May you take flight and find the Light. Find me on Insta: OrionKarina

Aeon Sophia: "I'm Coming Out!!!"

I know it's been several months and there's a few reasons for that. I suspect timing has a lot to do with it. This is the third attempt. Attempt one was a jammed computer. Attempt two resulted in typing a huge entry and then NOT HITTING SAVE! C'est la vie. I battle with knowing the line between lower ego and higher so I often refrain from indulging in my share-itis unless I am either directed or feel I am being asked for the same information over and over again. I actually hate writing. Many attempts have been made to corral me into this work but as any true north node Leo, I find myself satisfied by more directly involved work and experiences. I am not a teacher or healer nor do I ever intend to be. I do not share to sell or indoctrinate but to share my Light and look for like minded souls with similar experiences. With that being said....I will tell you what I saw in Joshua Tree after taking 1 or 2 shrooms (I will never do more than that and I've only done shrooms twice in my life. I bow down.)

Picture it. Joshua Tree. A nice balmy day is turning into a cooling night. Alright, on to the good stuff. My little sister had shrooms. Like I said, I have only done shrooms once before and found nothing really that I didn't already know but it was quite a shock to my body. I shed a lot of trauma as fear wracked my body and I shook in total and absolute terror. The good stuff. The stuff that lets me know Mama Gaia is coming into my system. Whether the locked up trauma likes it or not. Then, the messages come. My first trip was pretty much a recap of life and a wonderful reminder and validation that Gaia was in fact the one behind all my experiences and epiphanies and other mystical experiences growing up. Shades and shadows moved like they did when I was young, instructing and entertaining me like when one has a wonderfully awful vision inducing flu. I was scared to do shrooms again due to their intensity in kicking out trauma. How long can one maintain the terrifyingly helpless and abandoning feeling that their very soul and everything they thought they knew is about to be extinguished? How long can one feel gripped in the very hands of death and cold terror while simultaneously begging for the sweet relief of it? Turns out the answer is about a couple of hours.

I always ask for a message or guidance from my Mother if I use one of Her medicines. I've become pretty well disciplined with my prayers and devotions that my actions may be aligned with Her planetary ascension before I pull up that nicely rolled joint to my ever so devoted lips. Praise to my awesome Mother for creating such a wonderful way to bond. This trip was no exception. I made my usual prayers and offerings. I forgot to leave a few apples for Gaia. I paid for that oversight later.   My sister and I made a crystal grid gateway in order to open up more 5 dimensional energy for the planet. That may have been what did us in. My sister wanted to put a rose quartz in the center. I got greedy for Gaia and insisted a nice, hefty clear quartz may do a better job at channeling in as much as possible for the collective. It was a pretty big quartz.

Within a matter of minutes, I was no longer here. I can't even say I really knew what "here" was. I had lost all sense of being in some time or place. I had no informational reference and I was clinging onto any sense of perception that would anchor me to my 3rd dimensional existence which my limited human mind was now craving. I was as if all infinite and possible permutations and dimensions have already been calculated, played out and inventoried. I was floating above some space where I was outside of what we call space or time. I was above all the dimensions and not even sure if I was or could return to my wonderfully mundane and simple point in time and space of some lowly dimension I am capable of comprehending.  The infusion of Light and Information was intense. As if infinite eyes within and around me had opened up. So much was streaming in that everything seemed irrelevant and yet knowing how intricately events and things are linked, I was equally overwhelmed by a sense of terror now being very aware of the fine line between death and life. Suddenly, I began to pull it together and comprehend what I was experiencing. It was as if I was before an immense sea of Light and Sounds. Beautiful music and lyrics were telepathically transmitted as endless fractals of immense and divinely genius calculations played out before me at a dizzying pace of unfolding fabbonacian sequences like endless decks of playing cards. Each card more beautiful and intelligent than the next. The first fractals I saw were of Inanna, Ishtar and other beautiful proud and unknown goddesses. In each fractal, She became more beautiful, wild and confident and she more and more elegantly seemed to crush some enemy.  I know it was symbolic an stepped down a trillion times in order for my puny brain to understand but I finally started mumbling my first words as coherence began to take me.

"She's a current! Sophia is a current! She's not just a planet. Sophia is a current!"

She was a wild torrent. The communication was telepathic. She was a pure current going in and through me to show me that She has always been in and one with us and communication is as simple as being silent and She is US! Some of Her communication to me was personal and will not pertain to anyone else for the reason that She uses each vessel and life for a specific purpose. Back to Sophia's message to us. (Anyone wanting more personal or detailed recount can ask me if they know me. I love talking about Her.)

Sophia is a torrent. A massive moving current of energy that makes All She comes across more beautiful and intelligent by simply interacting with Her. She will take you into Her calculations and spit you out a better version of yourself than you could ever imagine. A long time ago, She fell down from Heaven. This was Her way of validating the Gnostic myths of Sophia falling from Pleroma. The center of the galaxy. Where She and we await ourselves. In Her fall, many dark things happened to Her. One main wound relating to something awful that a dark partiarchal entity did to Her millenia ago that was so awful that She swore She would never love again. Now, as I said, communication with Sophia is telepathic. When She is around you, you just know because you can feel what She feels since you and Her are One. The reason we forgot we are One (again, for the 4th time), is because the thing that that guy did a long time ago created a family wound within us so deep that we still carry around the shame, self-rejection and anger. I say guy but from what I was able to see (it was TOO much for me due to the high emotions behind it), this entity is more adrogynous and cannot reproduce hence their envy and attempt to control and demean Sophia and Her children. There are those who are not of Gaia-Sophia who are extremely envious of Her children because they carry Her current. Her current is very powerful, magical and wise and because of that, Her children have the capabilities to be as powerful at co-creation as their Mother. We are made up of currents within Her the same way that one fiber optic cable can be made up of several fiber optics bundled into one chord. Each cable is a current within Her. All the currents combined come from Sophia. Sophia is the Light behind the Light of Gaia. She is the source of all creation here and we are Her imagination! When we are happy, She is happy! However, it was Her fear that Her children would reject Her that kept Her in hiding for even longer.

We have been made to fear and hate the snake image or dragon image because this is how Sophia is represented to the human mind. Existence is metaphorical. And how else would you relay "massive and wild torrent of self-healing energy"? Everything within us and infinitely more stems from Her. She is the Mother and tomb of our emotions, ideas, plays, etc. Because of this, we inherit Her wounds as well. Like a snake, She is shedding Her wounds of Her lower self. And as part of that, She needs and wants to step out to Her family to reclaim and heal that family wounds. Sophia is our wild and proud Mother and asks that we reclaim our inner selves. That savage and sacred side that we have been aching to express. We are magical, shaman story tellers and this world is for OUR creation! Not those who have positioned themselves as enemies of Gaia.

Sophia asks that Her children return to Her and begin to build a bond within their heart because She wishes to wake up within us all so that She may share and co-create a lucid dream within this reality with Her that will bring you BOTH ultimate bliss and joy. Do not worry about what you can or cannot do. You will be empowered to do what She wishes you to do and it will appear joyful. Sophia has shown me how massively intelligent She is. She can easily crush this world and any other fractal faster than thought itself but it is Her sweetness of heart that has Her here reclaiming as many children as possible before She ends the infested reality.

There are certain entities that have interfered and continue to. You will know them soon but Mother Sophia does not want us to focus on revenge as She knows how massively intelligent Her children can be and how easily they can be distracted by their sense of justice. She has the same inclinations. We get it from our momma. She asks us to focus on the moments between the moments. Choose Love in every intention. These things infiltrate the mind. Her enemies. By focusing on the heart, we create an super organic, oxygen rich supportive environment for ourselves and a toxic environment for them.

Sophia has more than one current or lover that She interacts with thus creating a family within Her of many children by many fathers. None of the Fathers want to fight nor do they want their children to fight. Cosmic rules are far different from ours though they do understand many things like jealousy, frustration with spouses, etc. Again, where do you think we got it from? She has hidden this fact from us due to the massive shame we have placed on this sort of family structure. Here is where Her enemies shame everything about Her in order to keep Her children away from Her so that they can be abused, oppressed and enslaved. We have more than two strands of DNA due to the fact that many currents or fathers passed by here. Every double strand represents the coupling of Sophia's current with another current. Because this family is all sharing one pot, we inevitably have strands from several currents because Momma gets around. Acceptance is key. There in lies our power.

I'm not sure if this 5th time at restarting (She told me) is truly our last time or if we play out this drama all over again at some point higher along the spiral. I did not dare to ask because I was already a ball of trembling snot and tears. I had to beg Horus to come and help his baby girl because I was not past weenie-ing out. I was told the sky looked like a parking lot at that point but my loving husband (consort?) reminded my partners that maybe taping the sky wasn't a good idea when I looked like I was having what looked like a cross between the most massive exorcism ever and child birth. (same?)

I learned later that there is an Aeon called Horos and I could not help but wonder if there was a link because I felt as if Horus was definitely limiting my Mom and letting me be a spoiled brat; telling Sophia that maybe that was enough for today as I energetically stayed tucked between his massive legs sucking my thumb and crying. I saw myself from that point on wearing what appeared to be some feather outfit with an eagle or hawk head, spear and a cape. It made me feel more grounded so I let it be. Anything to get back down here. I suspect it has something to do with a message regarding what currents I am comprised of since I know understood all my thoughts stem from Sophia. When I looked into Her (Mega), I saw a kaleidoscope of images and archetypes such as Kali and Lilith sharing one fractal space and Oshun in many fractals doing what appeared to be some sort of cosmic dance to keep that bad vibes at bay and this Soul on track. Later, I understood that what I was looking into was a perfect mirror and Sophia was showing me the currents that I would comprehend that She used to make me. Again, like the cables that compose this chord and this chord projects the images onto this body of Her reality from Herself.  So all Her children are like bits of gathered cords from within Herself through which She can project Her Light and Sound and experience Herself though us, Her Imagination and children. And there is nothing more Momma wants now than to know Her dragon children are happily enjoying themselves on Her body as She makes Her way back home to Heaven. And every moment we choose Love is like lifting our Mother up on wings.

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Removing Negativity From Your Life

Here we are on the waning moon and it has been quite some time since I last blogged (really hit that "quite"). I think I've been sort of feeling out my pace or place. I see a lot of info pop up and down all day and to be honest, it can be really intimidating at first. Especially because it seems that a lot of starseeds are either frustrated because the blog pertains to what they already went through weeks or years ago and they are looking for further guidance and reassurance or the other end of the spectrum, starseeds are newly awakening and lost in a see of terms, concepts and paradigms they have to wrap their dreamy heads around first before climbing up that mental ladder to fix yo' mind. My original title was going to be "How to Fix Your DNA: Accessing Your Inner Library." I passed that to my little sister who is a newly awakened starseed. After I briefly outlined my concepts of nucleotides as geometric patterned frequency emission devices with latent self-programmable possibilities, I knew I lost her interest.  It received a slight eye roll. But the eye roll was there. Message received.

I wondered what I would want to hear if I was a little girl. And while every starseed is different, there is one core value we each share and that is the study and expansion of Love. We understand that it really is the code and key to all of Life and yet, severely underused and misunderstood. I dedicate this blog to sharing all I received concerning Cosmic and Gaian Love and may it help in your journey towards ascension as it has helped me!

My first random page flip has to do with: Being Okay with Letting GO!

As starseeds, we have decided to take on the mission of absorbing negativity, transmuting it, removing it, and adding light and love in order to raise the frequency so that consciousness and capabilities may be expanded and restored. (Me keeping it short. I tried, so hard.) As a consequence, many of us have the burden of very easily slipping into codependency. We see ourselves as everyone's savior because we vaguely or fully remembering descending to agree to be just that. It's when being a human angel becomes a being a human doormat that many starseeds begin to feel burdened, unappreciated, depressed, isolated, the list goes on. Starseeds often forget that they are very much so connected to Gaia and that the two feel as one. We forget because the lower frequencies of this planet trigger a sense of abandonment, loneliness and homesickness. (It's an illusion. A trick. They are very much in the same time/space as you. Only at a higher frequency that is not subject to the dense and traumatic illusions we are subject to while completing our missions.) You felt detached and lonely because at that lower frequency, Gaia felt detached and abandoned by you. We are Her imagination in form and embodied.

Here's what I received during the massive downloads everyone got in 2013/2014 that was supposed to help us dump and release a lot of unnecessary files within us so that we could do a full system restore. Only trick is, no one can rise alone. I can't gain access to any capabilities that is far outside the collective, no matter how clearly I remember experiencing it. I can collect at the fringes but it is the collective frequency that determines how far, deep and wide I am allowed to go. As you know, this planet has a terrible thing with hero worship. If one person fully restores and reconnects, they'd perform maybe two "miracles" before their face is all over every t-shirt and meme across this globe. No. We can't handle solo acts. We are just not mature enough as a collective. So, yes. As annoying as it is....everyone or no one is the rule. No man left behind! With that being re and re and probably later re'ed again iterated, here's what I was given to help me release bad habits that no longer serve the starseed journey.

"If you feel a person is "standing in your way" (of your destiny) because they are not reliable, responsible, dependable, kind, etc., then you have the full right to remove them from your life path or move around them. Like energy seeks its own and is best nurtured by like energy. Prosperous minds, when surrounded with prosperous minds, serve to combine and exponentially increase prosperity. This is due to the feeling and sense of being prosperous being concentrated and then magnified. (Feelings are magnetic properties. We feel attracted to people and thoughts (electric).) Therefore, for example, ten prosperous minded people (whose aligned actions and lives are testament to their beliefs) create an electric atmosphere of thought and possibility (potential energy) that each individual feels as their own prosperity multiplied ten times. This electrically charged potential of thought becomes and excites a magnetic feeling of possibility and prosperity that is felt and absorbed through feelings.

New ideas, new talents, intentions and more are born from this meeting of minds and concentration of spirit. When you are not around like minds, your flames of inspiration cannot be fanned. Fools despise wisdom by their very nature. Thus, non-prosperity minded people cannot even absorb any of your high frequency prosperous energy. They cannot appreciate any prosperity that they receive because appreciation requires acknowledgement. It is their lack of acknowledgement of the prosperity that surrounds them and that they arise from that lowers their frequency to begin with. Lower frequency people may tend to react destructively such as displaying envy,  in an attempt to lash out. Use Joy and Bliss as a compass as to what are good choices and thoughts. This is the path back Home. Joy and Bliss. Home itself."

A lot of what's in these journals have a different "voice" than my normal writing voice. You can tell the bits I edited for explanation.  A lot is written with the assumption that I know what I mean. If you want me to delve into specifics, just ask in the commento boxo.

And with that, I smell dinner or cookies or something wafting up the stairs. I already snuck two lemon bars. But all ingredients were organic so I've managed to sweet talk myself into giving me a pass for those. The rest of the night goes to the VK. Reppin' to the fullest. What, what? Ok....I tried to make the vegetable kingdom sound cool but maybe they don't want to. ;)

That's all for tonight, muchachos!

Your galactic big sis,
K

Discover Your Greatness: March 2016 New Moon and Solar Eclipse

As well all know, Ascension is a life long process that comes in waves and flows. Not one process looks or begins like the other so comparing progress would be as effective as checking your reflection in a shoe box. After all, it is the seemingly sporadic blooming of the roses on a rose bush that makes the whole damn orchestra of life beautiful to begin with. When 2012 happened to me, I was in the non-believer file. I completely believed in my galactic memories and paranormal experiences but my faith that I would see global awakening in this lifetime was on constant life support. And nor did I foresee the tremendous strength of entry Gaia-Sophia would make into my life! She was not a fading memory wrapped in tears or some hopeful wish but an unconquerable Source. Our Mother Source!  One of my favorite Ascension way showers Sandra Waters writes  in her last article Deepening For the Next Wave that "The week prior to the Solar Eclipse on March 8 (Maximum at 5:55pmPT with the New Moon) is a passage of deep choices, the Solar aspect of Self, and focus on full unification with the highest outcomes possible. It sets into form the unfoldment of those choices over the next few months. Purge any remaining thoughts of fear, worry, doubt – you will need to surrender to the higher consciousness completely, if embodiment is your personal quest. The eclipse provides pure magnetics, and we may use it to our advantage.The week prior to the Solar Eclipse on March 8 (Maximum at 5:55pmPT with the New Moon) is a passage of deep choices, the Solar aspect of Self, and focus on full unification with the highest outcomes possible. It sets into form the unfoldment of those choices over the next few months. Purge any remaining thoughts of fear, worry, doubt – you will need to surrender to the higher consciousness completely, if embodiment is your personal quest. The eclipse provides pure magnetics, and we may use it to our advantage."

Now, I don't know about you but I have definitely been feeling the effects of yet more cosmic sludge rising to the surface to be released. On the plus side, the flashbacks are becoming more detailed and precise now that they have been dislodged from even the atomic structures of our cells (the atomic is akin to the cosmic). Many of these stories hold quantuum packets of information that beckon to be released as they hold the old stories of trauma, control, war, anger, abuse et al. You may be receiving intense dreams or glimpses of intense images. For example, today while getting ready to set out, I saw a very sharp and familiar image of my hand in a very worn and unstrapped fingerless glove handling levers at a dashboard. I began to see Lyran faces (Finally. Memories of my memories. I can finally remember back to the good ole Lyran boys. Stern and serious as ever. Haha.) I usually stay away from books and writings about galactic histories until I receive my own memories so as to not become persuaded or influenced one way or another. This way, I can be sure my memories are not mere suggestions. I was born with memories of Mars and Orion so I never hesitated to see what others said but these Lyran memories are a very welcome reunion. And this will most likely be amplified by the Solar Eclipse and New Moon. We will continue to reunite with more and more aspects of our "selves" that we left in other parts of the Universe and embody them here on Gaia so as to complete our galactic missions.

It is said that magnetism is considered to be the negative pole of prana. Magnetism is the receptive and feminine quality of Gaia that attracts like unto itself. It is Her feeling and seductive force that makes work seem like pleasure when Love, as the magnetic feeling force, compels.  Magnetism is present in Gaia's blood as iron. It is this quality that anchors, attracts and compels (in a good, irresistible way)  spirit into embodiment. The core of Gaia is said to be a giant iron molten lava magnet. It is the flow of this liquid iron that creates electric current that in turn creates magnetism. (Right hand rule, anyone?) When Gaia dreams Herself as an aspect, it is dreamt in Her magnetic self. It is dreamt first as a possibility. When She dreams of a starseed, the cosmic feels compelled to answer "the call."

The spirit of a person is the totality of that person. When you are a child, you feel that the "truth" of yourself is the child. When you become a teenager, you feel that you were really a child waiting to become a teenager. Another truth. When you step into adulthood, you look back and view yourself as the child who had within her the potential of your "true" self, the adult. And yet, you were always you. Spirit feels into the "reality" of itself. A human is child, maiden and crone all in one and is constantly self-revealing like an unending toroidal force. All are true. All are spiritual potentials and true in spirit until embodied through blood to be felt so that spirit can feel into the reality of itself. It is this electric force of Spiritual potential that gets called down to and attracted to Gaia so that it can descend, embody and know itself in form. As a living story within the living library of Gaia-Sophia.

During a Solar Eclipse, the moon blocks the sun. The moon is representative of our reflective capabilities. It is the mirror in which our thoughts can look into so that we may guide ourselves through the dark and bring our hidden and undiscovered aspects back into the light so that we may know and experience them in form.  There will be no solar influence during the eclipse and this is an invitation to check-in and turn in. The Sun is pausing and asking "Is this really what you want to embody and live out?" And that is a question we must answer honestly and courageously. Are we dreaming big enough and allowing as much of our higher selves in as possible or is low self-worth shrinking our permission to be and live greatly for Gaia. Are you the Star of your own show? Are you asking for the role of a lifetime and preparing for it? Preparation is alignment.

Many believe our sun is a portal. We may even remember that it is through star gates that our consciousness descended slowly in integral steps of limitations into the lower realities until we reached the density in which the Universe of our choosing was located. Due to this, many parts of our consciousness could not descend or become embodied and for this we feel many pieces of our soul still reside in the higher planes. We experience the memories as simultaneous to now. Because the truth is, they are simultaneous to now and where you have memory, you have DNA because DNA IS memory (more on that later). We are now being invited to embody more of our higher selves that we left on the higher realms and home planets. These electrical aspects are the spirit of us, the potential of our greatness,  that can now enter to become embodied and know as living stories. The solar eclipse is an opportunity to dislodge from the collective mind, from all the does not serve you and recenter. Turn within and feel into your heart who it is YOU want to embody. And then to align and awaken that within you as you allow your higher self now to enter through the solar gate with clear intention and nourish your body vehicle and mind. Many of us can feel dizzy or get fainting spells when our higher selves descend or integrate within our bodies. This is due to vibrational shock as well as the organs of the body getting used to the new levels of hormones. And I would not be surprised if we eventually discovered new hormones. Ascensions is very much hormonal. It's as if we are in some galactic puberty. Awkward phase and all. The Solar Eclipse and the New Moon are fully supporting us to wipe the slate and be clear about the life we intend.


Orion was a very mental existence. And so my "self" honors these changes with the mental consecration of ritual. Ritual helps us to realign our mind with our spiritual intentions while using 3D items to stand in for mental paradigms, concepts or archetypes. We create a 3D scenario that represents a 4D reality that places us in alignment with our 5D truth. We readjust our mindsets until the mind is reset to our liking. Perception creates reality. The Solar Eclipse is on the heels of New Moon which is the perfect opportunity to honor this time as a massive release so that the new may enter in and through you.  Because the New Moon will be in Pisces, we will be further empowered to complete cycles of energies that no longer serve us as Pisces is the last sign in the zodiac. Many of us have been feeling a lot of activity within our cores and brain stems. This is kundalini energy.  We are co-directing our collective evolution so that Mather Gaia-Sophia may live freely and blissfully through us.

IMAGES I SAW IN MEDITATION:
Today in meditation, I saw a crystal descend into a pool of water, realize its own reflection, realize its oneness with its reflection, become the totality of the reflection, and the water and pierce through the rippling water. The plane of the water turned upside down as the crystal that was previously  submerging itself in the water began to appear emerging from within its depths and ascend as a city of light. I saw my higher self emerge from this city as a luminous hooded women as she melted into a luminous triangle of consciousness. I believe this may be duality folding in on itself and our higher selves emerging from the Unity consciousness of all our collective memories. All paradoxes and traumas resolved and beautified. We can only emerge from this more beautiful.

I later saw a winding stream appear before me as if very ancient cosmic waters have finally found their way towards me after eons of struggles, blockages, dead ends and near annihilation.  I received the message that although waters of consciousness may have taken fantastically long to burst forth through the underground and arrive through and despite winding paths and stumbling rocks and blocks,  as a result we are receiving only the best and most purified waters.  Drink in and enjoy. You deserve it! She who can swallow her anger for the good of all is stronger than she who cannot. Galactic memories coming more on line as we are invited to release even our galactic past traumas.

How to Channel the Powers of a Goddess or God

At first, the notion that one can channel a god or goddess seems frightening. At the best, impossible. But as I see it and remember it partially, gods and goddesses are archetypal energies that exist outside Gaia's grounded humanity. As we know, Orion brought with them the cosmic pantheon of Isis and Osiris and Horus when they arrived in Egypt in order to assist humanity in its ascension. Each of them representing a necessary facet that means something intimate and personal to each individual ascension process. Consider an archetypal energy like a huge massive human current and we are the tiny humans within that human. They exist beyond us and are of a vast and tremendous torrential intelligence but they need us to interact on Gaia as intermediaries and we need them for....HELP!!! The Gods and Goddesses aligned with Gaia are countless as we are all familiar with some very famous ones like Isis, Horus, Aries, Oshun, Hecate, and Kali to name a few.
 
Let's look at channeling. What does one need in order to channel effectively. Well, we need a sensitive and clear receiver. And we need for the receiver to be tuned to the same frequency as the transmitter. How does one become "in tune" then with the frequency emissions of these Gods or Goddesses? Simple as a pimple. What else does one do when they want to become friends with or understand someone they do not share a language or culture with? We hang out with them and either create common ground or discover it. In this way, we can "tune into" a new friend. Ever notice how the closest friends and family to us seem to feel like we can psychically pick up on how they are doing without any word from them? We are in tune.

The most typical way humans create this link to the Gods and Goddesses of their choosing is by creating some ritual that allows the participant to receive the Spirit of the God or Goddess by recreating the story of their life, the most quintessential parts of their life in order to experience the emotional truth of the deity they wish to create a channel for so that that current can run within them and they can receive the frequency. They are imprinting themselves with the same memories as the deity so as to become one with them. According to "Awakening your DNA" by Felicity Skye, "ritual and action set in motion an integration of these types of archetypal energies."
 
That's all gravy but what if you don't have the time to start jerry rigging yourself to be Aries inside and out? Another way is to review your life and feel into what you feel the currents and themes that ran through them are. The themes that repeat in the story of a Goddess mean that the Spirit of that Goddess was "watching over you." In Santeria, they say the qualities you possess that you share with a God or Goddess (ancestors) is due to the spirit  of that Goddess or God protecting your throughout your life so as to insure your life. You and the ancestor or God/dess have always been one. Or in other words, the potential of that goddess is what inspired you to survive or thrive through the same story they did. So, here is an example. Let us suppose that you grew up in a very abusive home and felt deprived of an earthly pleasures. You will most likely survive and thrive if you allow yourself to give birth to some very dark and aggressive aspects of yourself. Congratulations! You are a child of Kali. You can then parlay this release of victimhood and perform rituals to strengthen your recognition of this part of you. And like this, you will sharpen your tuning skills and channel Kail progressively. You can then consciously behave when desired under her inspiration and channel the power of this goddess. Use your intuition to guide your search and then look at what you can transform into with what you went through. The more precisely your own life events match the life events in the mythos of your God or Goddess, the stronger your connection. Tally, ho.

Service to Self as a Path to Ascension

Many people by now are familiar with The Law of One which is a channeled work. While I don't espouse to one doctrine or another, I feel like it's important to talk about the service to self vs. service to others  paradigm that's been floating around. The reason I feel like it's important to talk about it is that empathic people, by nature, are very giving and let's face it...co-dependent. And what this leads to is a life of victimhood at the hands of sociopaths who look for service to others beings to feed off and are especially drawn to their generous, gorgeous energy.  Consider this my cynical Orion/Martian side giving you some big sisterly eye openers. I know my starseed kin are very golden-hearted but alas...most of Gaia is not. Hence why it was necessary to descend and inject into Her the Love that Her children were incapable of reciprocating.

Gaia sent out the call for help because She was drowning in negativity and fear. Fear that the greed and selfishness of Her children and adopted children would self-implode and destroy Her as they have done to many, many planets before Her. (Oh...but maybe THIS time they'll change. Yes, Momma. We got our soft, sweet hearts from you.) After they feast on their victims, the service to others light workers are left feeling drained and have to spend days to replenish while distracting themselves from the fact that they are the food of vampires by telling themselves that to be a victim and hand over their energy for the light of others who cannot and will not appreciate them is their "role" as light workers. To show the loveless what love is. But here is some Earthy wisdom I have managed to gather over my time here. Those without Love in their hearts can never recognize Love if it sat on their faces and farted. Michael Tsarion does a wonderful expose on the rampant sociopathy that has taken hold of society. His work is meant to enlighten and armor; not frighten.

 I spent the first part of my life (or what I consider my previous double life) experimenting with the service to others mentality as part of both my duty to take on earthly roles and part of my studies into humanity. Service to others works only in a paradise where other people are as empathic and appreciative as the folks for whom thinking of others first comes easiest and most naturally to. What I ended up with was a life of being surrounded by takers without limits due to my incapacity to say "no" and little to no life left for myself and my dreams. The very reason Gaia brought me into this experience was to dream through me. Not to dream for others. That would serve the illusion that I was somehow separate and special and had something  or connection they did not. We all have the same capacities. Equal but unique.

I've had many memories of being service to self on Orion. And no. I was never some controlling dictator. In fact, our controlling dictator worked under the guise of "I only do what is best for the people."  Doesn't that sound familiar? Look at the organized religions here. They all claim service to others and yet, coincidentally, only one or a very few members up top are the powers to be that determine what exactly is best for "the others." Orion became trapped in a herd mentality where fear became to engulfing factor and a police state intruded even into our very thoughts. And yet, the same dark ones that ruled with an iron fist in the name of "the good of all" have somehow concocted a clever way for humanity to police their own thoughts. How many of us experience doubt or guilt or shame as if some invisible eye were policing our thoughts thinking it belongs to society or some invisible judging deity when that very eye is us?

The problem that the dark ones have that we of freedom do not is that we can merge with planetary consciousness. Yes, that is the trick to being service to self AND ascending. You can never know what someone else's needs are. Even we are in a constant unfolding of our hearts to ourselves.  Our unfolding needs are a mystery even to us. Any intention to serve some need is simply a projection of your own illusion. You can only know YOUR needs. And Gaia's needs through YOU. On Orion, the "heretic" priests and priestesses were simply the ones who dared to believe beyond the limits of what the Orion authorities allowed (consider our own earthly organized religions and how many people will refuse to believe anything that was not personally sanctioned by them.) The darkest times in Orion corresponds to the time of Atlantis on Gaia (more on how that works later.) As a result, no one on Orion thought that escape from the Orion empire would be possible and that all souls would be doomed to be incarnationally stuck and born and reborn into a system that frankly felt dead and miserable. One way to escape was to open up an astral portal which required tremendous powers of dreaming (thought, emotion, focus, total conviction. An art that requires one to know how to enter a trance through self-hypnosis while simultaneously remaining in focus enough to direct a vision. The feminine art of surrendering to a receptive frequency and the male art of the visionary and focus) due to how strong the collective Orion matrix resisted escape. Tales were told of Gaia, a planet where one could be what they wanted. But no one believed the would ever be able to escape to a Gaia where Orion has yet to have total control. Or worse, no one could believe that Gaia would in fact escape the clutches of the seemingly inconquerable Orion Empire.  It was as if a dystopian America began to lay their eyes on some new virgin territory. Everything repeats. Naturally, as an extreme case of service to self, I was not on board with the powers that be to acquiesce.  I absolutely hated the "because we said so" motto of the service to others powers that be. Many of us revolted. Many of us eventually made it to Gaia and again resisted. Many of us refused to surrender the dream of a free Gaia. Many of us were called "fallen angels." The resistance was taken to Gaia. The resistance was eventually once again demonized as enemies of humanity for our effort to free them. Earthly religious texts are a who's who of blacklisted freedom fighters whose crimes included teaching mankind reading and writing and how to fight and arm themselves against imposing forces. Here's a good example of biblical references to the resistance. As with all texts, consider the source and their agenda.

The best way to maintain a frequency of service to self (which is a lot more empowering than service to others) is to focus on your meditational grounding skills. Learn to ground effectively so that you may know Mother Gaia in yourself and yourself as a projected aspect of Mother Gaia. Yes, you are part dream of Gaia-Sophia and part inspiration of your previous planet where your consciousness is currently descending from. In your meditation, focus also on your connection to Source. Feel yourself as one with Gaia and one with Source, the Cosmic, humanity, etc. As you do this, your humanity strengthens. You will feel compelled to align your personal perspectives and desires with the good of all. Soon, naturally, you will always desire the good of all as desiring for the good of all is a natural and human feeling that will bring you rewarding vibrations. Your desire will spring up in a healthy and wholesome way that is in balance with all the kingdoms of Gaia. You would never desire something that would hurt Her like say, useless fur vanities (side eyes to all the pop star divas that kill animals for vanity. I would not want to be you...) You will dream in unison and harmony with all Her kingdoms. These vibrations are close or you can bring them into 5D which is unity thinking. This opens up a portal of thought and potential to you that will inspire and compel you towards your heart truest dreams and desires, your soul mission. How you will help Gaia ascend. What lucid dream is Gaia attempting to magic through you? As you meditate, speaking about what you experience or acting upon the 5D principles will anchor your higher self into the NOW of your 3D.

Because we are all one, when I uplift you, as one with Gaia, I uplift Her. Even the tiniest lift in frequency will help Gaia's lucid dream become more powerful and as a result, more power and talents will unfold from Gaia through me. See? Helping you, helps me. I can be a greedy little bitch and it's okay because the more I help you, the more I help myself and the more I can benefit and help myself, I can help you!

You can still help others but we are invited to use discenrment and creativity.  Keep in mind that You are Gaia-Sophia. And what you do to yourself or allow towards yourself, you are doing to and allowing to happen to Her. And we all know She's been through quite the ringer. Be kind to others. Most importantly and this juncture, be kind to yourself, star kin! Refuel and rest as needed!

PS: If you, my dear StarKin, recognize the awful symptoms of co-dependency within yourself and seek to be free, I HIGHLY suggest  this site: www.innerbonding.com

There are many free tools you can check out and use. I can't do the work for you but I can help you by telling you what helped me. This work helps you to reconnect to and HEAL your inner child. (Inner child=Inner magician.)

Are You a Black Dragon?

 

Well, if you got to this point, then you should already know the Divine Plan was all about the unfoldment of Gaia-Sophia (plantetary intelligence) through us so that we can be at  Her highest expression of Herself and once again restore Her original Divine plan for Her Human experience. We're talking some X-men shit.  You may even be among the many that remember answering the call from what appeared to be an angelic realm. Possibly Pleroma. Each soul entered many gates in order to descend their consciousness in order to be able to manifest and incarnate in the third dimensions  so as to grasp the concepts of and anchor into 3D Gaia-Sophia and raise Her vibration. In the Orion, our intelligence became polarized as one side became tyrannical and despotic. Mind you, this is from the point of view of the opposing force.  In other words, my perspective.  From their angle, they may say I, and others like me, were endangering the social order. That they happened to dictate. In response, many souls were sent to be born as Orion children because it seemed that the only souls cunning enough to beat an Orion was another Orion. These souls vibrated to freedom and did not accept the illusion of outside authority. They became an annoying and troublesome thorn in the sides of the powers that be. Most dangerous to the order because their freedom had absolutely no price and could not be bought or bartered for.  To hide from power after lifetimes of being killed or punished, they became a mindset and not one singular easily executable person. The movement went underground so that it was nowhere to be found by authorities and could no longer be supressed. That way, who was the Black Dragon? Everyone. Everyone who believed in freedom.
 

 
I'll share personal glimpses and memories i had soon. In the mean time, I would love to hear if anyone else has any memories!

About Me: Are You Looking for Me?

 Ever since the waves stared to come in, the collective consciousness has finally reached the critical mass necessary for us to reach the vibration that will allow us to unfold more of our DNA. We no longer have to work under cover in dark and negative places to raise the frequency and expand the consciousness of everyone we come across. Now is the time to unite, heal and share!

Here's a few things about me that maybe we have in common:
 

I was born with knowledge of epinoia, the noosphere, multidimensional existence, DNA repair,  and that the collective had somehow lowered it's vibratory frequency in response to some yet unrevealed (to 5 yr old me ) trauma. At three, I was haunted by flashbacks of Mars. Now, I say haunted because the striking and detailed images and perceptual experiences would just seemingly pop into my mind like someone with PTSD but the memories themselves were not that traumatic. I remembered the one that jumped out at me most was one in which I hopped into what looked like a fighter jet after an enemy had surprised attacked us at night. (No, I don't watch Star Wars. I never will, dammit. Teehee.)  My two friends flanking me on either side began to insist we would not make it despite the large bravado I had in this life. There was a lot of firing around us and the last words I heard were, "We are sending your soul to Earth." I was upset because it that timeline, although I travelled to Earth before, I found it extremely primitive and I preferred the activity of war, strategy and tactics.

In the thick of battles, I had forgotten that the reason I went to Mars was to further imprint my DNA so that my success in assisting with Gaia's ascension would be protected from sabotage or worse, the ever dreaded self-sabotage (dreaded because one then feels compelled to immediately incarnate and repeat that whole damn boring thing over again till you get it RIGHT! You cannot proceed in your mission without fulfilling the necessary frequency which means rectifying failures to withhold intention. Focus, young grasshopper. Always, focus...).  This is done by imprinting yourself with many consecutive lives of some preferable action. Let's say you go and live many lives as a soldier who always stays on mission. By the time you decide to take your consciousness and descend into Earth, you will begin to fog out and forget your plan as you are overcome with that immense  amnesia that descension into Gaia brings that is brought on by the density of the low frequency collective thoughts, amnesia and auras. Now, the good thing about being imprinted is that you do not have to remember that you will be tempted and must stay strong to your mission because it has embedded itself into your unconscious mind. It is now part of your very Nature. Your very nature will be that of a steadfast soldier and your success is more assured than if you were not imprinted. Many of us also came in as squeaky clean as possible by redoing even the most mundane lives to make sure we completed them as authentically as possible. You just cannot take any chances incarnating into Mother Gaia-Sophia. Not while the whackos lurk about thirsting for power for power's sake.

 
Years later, I would abandon my attempts at telepathic geolocation (When I was small, I was shown that they could not relocate me due to a time-lock. That's fancy schmancy talk for they plain old can't find me due to the insanely dense and low vibration. It's like dropping a grain of glass into mud and them trying to not loose track of it as it drops and sinks in. ) and decided it must have all been some escapist fantasy that my childish mind created to escape the abusive and violent place my house would become. Only as an adult did I realize that it is quite odd for a child who is not in school yet or interested in space to receive such vivid and detailed imagery of a place she was not even told could exist.
 
My father worked for the Department of Defense. Yes, I know. I would really not care to tell the name of the arsenal but at this point, it doesn't matter because no one is really reading. Lol. There was a lot of dark and negative energy around him and he admired Hitler. Yes, this is what our taxes go to. I had the typical high levels of poltergeist and psychic pneomena/activity that all "starseeds" had. I was told it was evil and was demonized instead of nurtured. In response, I began to fear and worse, suppress myself.
 
My violent upbringing and restrictive/unfulfilling life led to a severe case of suicidal depression that I was told was "my cross to bear" for Jesus. As you know by now, if there is one thing Orions hate, it is illogical stupidity. I rejected everything I was given as a child eventually.

Unable to forget about my mystical and paranormal experiences or my very detailed flashbacks, I began googling now that Google was born. I did not find anything even close till I found this video of a child named Boris. The other side of the world, another generation, the same story...but from opposite sides! Turns out his memories (which were more detailed than the ones I remembered. His mother, however, was supportive. I had to hide all of my experiences and as a little girl, was told not to share. What was shared was always demonized.) were of battling me and my friends in one of the great battles of the last great, cataclyismic war. He remembered the soul technology and the ships and the skies. He said the war was over a technology. His side was able to place a soul into a stone and the other side was able to beam them directly to a planet. Exactly how I was sent to Earth!

In my experience's point of view, Boris did not know he was working for the same dark and draconic Orion influences that were attempting what they could to trap souls to THEIR collective.  This is why he had memories of scientists asking him to do unsavory genetic experiments according to his mother who would watch him replay these memories while playing with his toys as a child. This is also why he remembers they were attempting to turn Saturn into some second sun. Saturn was being highjacked as a dead planet that was now operating as some enormous programmable frequency emission device (in other words, as a dead planet, it was not organic and ever-changing like Gaia but replicating whatever frequencies and programs were poured into it from cosmic or human sources and computing through its own planetary frequencies.) Saturn was being programmed into some sort of consciousness trapping mechanism by emitting low frequencies so that those souls and energies trapped in Orion or other lowering frequency civilizations would remain trapped and low. The Orions favored fake and manufactured feelings and experiences as those can be controlled and harvested. Corporations do not exist without human collective energy. That is one example. A dead planet that is over run by sky highs and corporations while shipping in food from slave planets is a dark Orion's wet dream. My family on Mars (a union of two houses from Lyra and Orion) kept the sacred technology that allows a soul to escape entrapment but we knew it could easily be abused by dark souls wishing to escape their own creations if they kill yet another planet, for example. I have so much more to say about everything but I will go little by little every day because I hate reading long....boring...blogs. I'm also figuring out my place in raising the frequency at my station point.